Can I Keep You?

Nana '44-'03 Papa

Today I found out that my Papa[grandpa] left the hospital.
He has cancer in his back, liver, right lung, and brain. He wanted to spend his last days
at his house. The last time I saw him was a couple weeks ago and my family is
sure that he won't make it past this week. I'm so scared.
Back in 2003, when I was 11 my Nana passed away and I lost some one really close.
I'm not close to my Papa anymore because of his new "family". But I know that
when he goes, the tears will flow as fast and as hard as my Nana's tears did to me.
I can't concentrate on anything anymore. It's finals week at school as if I didn't already
have enough to worry about.
I love my Papa, so much. And I don't want him to go.
Another family member down and life is closing in.
It hurts to even think of death, but it's hereditary.
I can't keep you, Papa.
Sometimes it felt like you didn't even want me.
I know it's your time now, so go and be with Nana.
We'll miss you and your lame ass jokes, but you'll always be my Papa.
Too young, just like Nana; but you'll still go.
I love you, Papa.
-Shawna